things about me to make you go hummmm

I love my job but hate the drive to and from…

I hate working in Missouri & living in Kansas but hate the school district so can’t move to Missouri…

I am addicted to Reality TV!!!

John Cusack is one of my favorite actor.. would give anything just to say hi to him….

I have a secret obsession with hummus.. hated it the first time I ate it..now I cant get enough.

I dream of having a house someday but not holding my breath!!

I hate doing laundry but love the smell of it when it is clean..

I long to be a neat freak but just cant seem to find that side of me yet…

I fear being alone the rest of my life..

I fear gaining back the weight I have lost

Have a fear that the boys will turn out like the other side of the family…

I love when they say something and have the most innocent look on their face when they say something off the wall like “looks like daddy’s getting some quality time..”

I have horrid thoughts of what if.. I hadn’t let Bill decide to be taken off life support would he of made it through and been ok?? Would I still have him with me..

I can still close my eyes and see dad being brought into the ER… sometimes I hate to close my eyes…

A little tired but OK!!!

Fun was had by all.. ok at least fun was had by the boys.. Quentin got transformers.. he love it..They fell asleep around 230.. I however was woke up around 1 and couldn't fall back to sleep till after 4..

Well the busy weekend is now over YEA... Started out at the basketball game.. we lost by 6 in over time.. went to the shower.. that was fun.. Jen got alot of cool stuff.. then home and off to Paula's for Sammy's birthday.. he was so cute.. Now I am home laying in bed trying to warm up since it is bitter cold out...

No plans yet for the coming week.. kind of a good thing.. will be nice to relax..

Busy weekend

I have a busy weekend coming up.. Friday night I will have 3 teenage boys in the house...AHHHHH plus one who thinks he is grown..haha. Then Saturday morning McKinley has a basketball game at 11:50.. I will drop off the kids go to Jen's shower.. then home for a birthday party for Sammy.. wow.. Sunday.. not sure yet... hope relaxing or maybe a date.. hehe

I am so sick of snow.. here's hoping they are lying about what is coming tonight!!!

Oh an my weight finally moved again .. i am 88.4 .. so close to my old drivers license weight.. when I renewed it i sat my goal weight...hehe

Happy Birthday to Quentin!!

I cant believe I will have a teenager in 3 day's AHHHHHHHH how did that happen??

Ruth sent the boys something called webkinz .. well the package was nicely wrapped and had his name on it. He opened it and it was in a box that had a plastic bag holder .. he was all excited and even read the box COOL it hangs on the wall.. I said why don't you try opening it up.. it says O its something else... not sure think he would of been happy with the plastic bag holder.. hehe

Not sure what we will do for his birthday. He wants a cookie cake so we will see. I think we are having a sleep over on the 18th WOO HOO.. wish me luck.. hehe

HAPPY cough, cough, NEW YEAR!!!

Let me clear up something.. the boys were with me.. when I was saying alone I was meaning .. no one to kiss at midnight!!! I love my boys and yes we watched a movie and then turned on the count down. We toasted with water & pop since in my sick stupor i forgot the sparking grape juice.. I was in bed at 12:05

I am a bit better now still coughing and sputtering and sometimes having troubles breathing at night.. last night was a bad night again.. couldn't sleep very well.. plus I was having a very strange dream.. anyway.. nothing to exciting has happened yet in 2008.. had to come back to reality and go back to work on the 2nd..

McKinley's basketball games start again on Saturday.. if anyone is interested in seeing him play let me know I will give you has time he plays. He is having fun..