William Joseph Strausbaugh III 11/17/67-08/14/2001

I am sitting here alone tonight thinking of my life 10 years ago. It would be the last night I would be able to hold the had of the man I loved, as tomorrow morning he has chosen to die.

Bill fought a long hard battle with cancer. He was tired and his body couldn't take any more. The Dr. gave him a choice to be put in a medical induced coma and then I would decide the day we removed him from life support. The other choice was to be taken off of life support in the morning. My brave husband made a choice that I don't know I could of. He chose to be removed from life support. As my heart broke I watched as his dad .. sisters & brothers, my parents & sisters and many friends came to say their last goodbye's. The one the made me cry the hardest that night was when my father grabbed Bill's hand and whispered in his ear I wish you a good journey. Little did I know that a little over a month later I would be whispering these same words in my fathers ear.

Tomorrow I will try to be strong because of our boys!! It will be a hard day. I will remember the good things and the good times!! Bill I want you to know I love you and miss you every day!! I hope your journey was a good one!!

Has it really been 10 years

Sunday August 14th will mark 10 years that I lost Bill. Some days it seems like it was yesterday, then some days it does feel like its been 10 years. I miss him so much!!

Growing up you never see yourself as a widow with 2 boys an trying to make it on your own, but here I am. I would like to say it gets easier. It doesn't you just get through it. Every year brings a new challenge. I also have many days of the "What if's" What if he had gone to the Dr sooner.. What if I would of said no.. you can come off the respirator.... I try not to but they creep in.

As I look at my boys I think to myself funny how much the boys are like their dad even though they were not around him much. I see Bill in McKinley alot in looks and attitude. That can be good and bad!! I am sad that the boys never got to see what a special man their dad could be.

Well I have depressed everyone.. If you want leave a memory of my Bill. .. One of my favorite things about him was his laugh... it was loud and boisterous and would suck you in an make you want to laugh with him.

Love to everyone!!

Summer

So summer has come an has almost went.. except we are in a HEAT WAVE!!! Nasty hot here!! funny that in May we were still wearing coats sometimes because it was SO cold!! anyway on to my life...







Took a vacation this year to the Hutchinson Salt Mines..very fun. If you get a chance go. It wont disappoint. Mitzi came with us an we had a great 5 days.
Quentin & Mac have finished their 1st part of summer school both did great. Mac is a 1/2 a credit a head now for his high school years.. Quentin is now on his 2nd class for summer. Keep your fingers crossed this one goes well also.

Not much else planned for the summer just trying to stay cool. Oh we will be seeing the movie of the summer Harry Potter!!

I know its been FOREVER!!!

Wow.. how crappy did my year start off!! As all of you know I broke my radio head bone on the 30th of December. Was walking through the garage at work minding my own business.. thinking WOO HOO Mitzi is coming we are going to have FUN!!! and BOOM I fell!! OUCH!!! Visit to the er home good drugs and I am healing!! It is now March.. wow where did the time go!! Nothing to exciting has happened to us.

McKinley is in his first play on May 5th & 6th. It is the Music Man. If anyone is interested in coming let me know. Planning on having a cake for him at the house after on the 6th!!

Quentin is ready to get his licence.. How scary is that??

I was doing so good on my diet and I went astray!! BUT hoping I can find my way back now!!

Ok thats my update for now hope everyone is GOOD!!!